i saw him today

i saw him today
not right in front of me
somewhere else
yet somewhere still close
not somewhere within touch
somewhere that still made me
look away after a moment of a glance
but back again
another glance
that captures how he had changed
how his eyes crinkled a bit
the way his gait strayed a bit
and how he had stayed the same

something came by

someone stopped in the way

i can’t see you anymore
i can’t see you at all

time snuck back again
i never realized
the outline of your figure
could be so similar to those
i consider unfamiliarity
but they are not you
never will they be you
yet how i wished they were you
so i can stop searching

i can’t see you anymore
i can’t see you at all
i saw my second glance
wilting away

i saw him today
and i will still hope
i can see him again
and again

2/19/19 3:29 pm
{rough draft/not editing}

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what life is

do you hear that
it’s an intake
and an exhale
whether it is of content
or of neglect
no matter if it was of
reminiscing or of
discomfort
-it doesn’t matter
the intake could sharpen
because of pain
the exhale can lessen
because of release
our existence is of inhale and
exhale-
the contentment never lasts
long- neither does the
neglect
so inhale – and exhale
as if your life depends
on it
so you’ll understand
what you are living for.

2/2/19 6:16 pm

behind another

i had looked around me
people were moving
with one step ahead of another
forward step, forward step
i had once thought
i was just like them
with one step and another
moving, moving
with one step at a time
i had once believed
i was just like them
and i really was
just with one step
behind another

2/1/19 11:24 am